Well, Olivia got Strep Throat too. Lovely...
It has been an emotional week for a variety of reasons.
I am not sure what the answer is for us and getting more sleep but I am finally at my end. They fight and fight their naps now during the day. They will only sleep in their swings, stroller, or car. I can't physically rock both of them at the same time anymore because they mess with each other. If I take turns, they wake each other up as I am putting them into their crib. My end is here. All I know is my girls are exhausted, grouchy, whiny, and not happy babies. And I am not a happy mommy.
My mom stayed with the girls today during nap time while they cried it out. I was crying it out at my friend Sarah's house. I went back after about 2 hours. We put them back down for their afternoon nap and I went downstairs to rest and turned off the monitor. They did a little better. We are hoping to cut out the night time bottles and comfort back to sleep during the night without putting a bottle in their mouths.
I feel so defeated. I know they are fine and everything; with no permanent damage. I just feel like I am short changing them by going against what I believe is right. I feel like I have failed them for not being able to find a way to establish healthy sleep habits without crying it out. I hate this. I hate that we have come to this. I hate that I am not strong enough to listen to their cries myself. I hate hate hate this.