Friday, May 8, 2009

Brag About Friday

I would love to have some of you join in with me today for Brag About Friday. Just leave a comment telling me your brag. You can also go blog about it and leave me a comment with your blog link so I can come celebrate with you. If I get enough participation, I'll put up a Mr. Linky. I know Heather at 3 Under 3 has a great bragging post I will pretend she put up just for me ;-)

This is a bit of a long one but so worth it...

A few weeks ago I was having one of THOSE days. You know, the days when you have to walk away from your children for the safety of all involved. This was before the whole crying it out thing. The girls were fighting their naps with a passion and I was SO done!

I used to rock them to sleep in the recliner with one of each side and me sitting in front of it and singing and rocking them. It worked so well. Well, they had just started this whole make Mommy crazy thing where they would mess with each other to the point of making each other cry. That day after they had messed up the whole recliner thing, I was already short on patience. I rocked Olivia to sleep and laid her in her crib, then I rocked Abby to sleep. The moment I laid Abby in her crib, Olivia woke up. She had only slept for maybe 15 mins. So I took her into our room and rocked her back to sleep. While I rocked her I just cried and cried because I was SO tired and frustrated and really needing them to just give me a break already! I was also praying and asking the Lord for strength through this time. I remember telling him that I so wanted to say, "I just can't DO this!", but I knew that with him I could get through it. After Olivia was asleep I laid down with her in my bed. I knew she would stay asleep for a little longer. I prayed again asking for just a little time for a nap, please, please. I just needed a little bit of a rest. I heaved a huge sigh, closed my eyes...and Abby woke up. was not good, people.

I left Olivia in our bed and went in to sit with Abby. She was so not going back to sleep and was just climbing and clawing all over me. All this time, Gary and I were texting. I was giving him a blow by blow :-) He could tell that I was about to lose it and asked if I needed him to come home.

Ya'll, I SO needed him to come home, but dang it! I didn't want to need him to come home. I mean, wasn't I capable of caring for my own two children, for pete's sake?? That was me at my lowest, I think; so needing help, but not wanting to ask for help. I had already asked the Lord for help and that hadn't gone according to plan. And plus, I thought of all those MOMs out there who do it every day with no help. I just felt so incapable as a mom. But, finally, I knew I needed help for the sake of the girls, because I was out of patience.

So he came home.

He walked in the door and said, "Go...go to a movie...go shopping...just have the day off."

Umm...could you hear the angels singing? Cuz I sure could. They were singing loud and clear "Hallelujah!" I just started crying and saying thank you thank you thank you. And then I jumped up and was out of the house in 5 minutes. I had to get out of there before he changed his mind!

I got a pedicure and went shopping at...wait for it...a MALL! I was in desperate need for some clothes that fit and weren't t-shirts so I headed to the mall. And, oh my, it was heavenly. Possitively heavenly.

I came home refreshed and ready to get back to it.

This day did so much for my heart. It was so much more than a day off. It was a healing alone time with my own thoughts. Gary knew just what I needed and just how he could step in and do it. He is truly the love of my life. The Lord did answer my prayer with a better plan than I had, because let me tell you, retail therapy is better than a quick rest any day. I have bragged about Gary before and I know I will again. I so thank God for sending me this wonderful man.


Soxy Deb said...

First of all I literally laughed out loud at "EEEEEK" in the header!! Your a weirdo and I love ya!

Now, I'm so glad you realized that you were drowning and let Gary help you. There is absolutely NOTHING ANYWHERE that says we have to do it all alone. And there is NO SHAME in asking for and accepting help. I'm so happy you did.
And who doesn't love a couple hours at the mall? No matter what got ya there.

Rachael said...

that is wonderful that you were able to let go + ask for help + even more incredible that your husband helped far more than you expected. so glad that you had an enjoyable day to yourself!

kristi said...

I was just reading this and started crying. I have so been there many a times and my twins are only 6 weeks old! What an amazing guy! I found myself praying to God today too to give me some patience not only for my twins but for my 2 1/2 year old too!

Gary Puckett said...

Ahhh, thank you. Love you.

Heather said...

So many things to say...

first, your husband rocks for doing this.

Second, you are not incapable or a failure as a mom. I mean, think about it... how many moms would be rocking those girls like you did? Most would have called it quits MONTHS ago. If it makes you feel any better, I have cried in frustration so often lately.

Third, good for you for asking for help!

Lastly, I totally put the post up for you! :)

Have a great weekend and happy mother's day friend!

Cheryl Lage said...

That picture says it all. A man who loves his kids. A man who loves his wife. Letting go is HARD...I'm awful at it, but my husband told me he felt insulted/untrusted when I "held too tightly." I still do on occasion, but it's such a blessing to see Daddies like your twins' (and mine) flourish and blossom

(and the EEEEEK! cracked me up too!)

Mom, Mommy, Mama said...

well eeeek hurry up and do a new header:) I love that photo of G with the girls just looking at it I can feel the "Hallelujah!" you felt as you went out the door. love ya:)

Verna said...

Every mother needs some away time at some time or other. It's great that you recognized it.

Glad you go some away time and were able to go do something for you.

Happy Mother's Day.

monica said...

What a sweet post about your husband!! He seems like a great guy! And what a wonderful way to spend an I am glad that you feel revived now! The picture of the girls and Gary together is very cute!

Doubly Blessed said...

I could cry reading your brag! i know JUST how that feels! What a great husband!