Thursday, November 6, 2008

Emotional Dump

I dumped my purse. Not my real purse. My emotional one. If you read the comments from my "What's in your Wallet" post, you remember that Gary had a pretty good theory about women and their emotional purses.

He said:
I have a theory on women that relates to purses: when a woman is upset and starts bringing random issues from weeks, months, or years ago into the argument I call it "cleaning out her purse". She is bringing up all of the things that she has tucked away in her purse and something triggers her to start dumping it out. So now men can know why they are getting hit with a comment they said two weeks ago. They just got hit with an old stick of gum from her purse.

Well, it had nothing to do with him, but last night after a truly trying day I did needed to dump a lot of my feelings of inadequacy and frustrations about some things; the state of my body, the constant crying (the girls not me), the frustrations I have with not being able to get out of the house on my own, my guilt over constantly having to attend to Olivia while my little Abby is happy on her own, the fact that there is no room for us down stairs...just so much that needed to come on out. So in true man fashion, he went into "fix-it" mode, which, for once, I really needed. We are going to turn the dining room (my beautiful dining room, sniff, sniff) into a playroom for now. And we developed a plan on how to get the girls on a schedule.

So that's what we are doing today; listening to fussy babies as they try to figure out why they can't have their bottles on demand. I know in the long run it will be better for all of us, so I can handle a few rough days with help from Gary. Surprisingly it is going pretty well, but it is probably just Gary's soothing presence...and I am not even joking about that.

I am working on something for tomorrow. I would like to get my own weekly thing going on Fridays so I am busy busy with that today. Have a great Thursday!

Sara

11 comments:

Souza Sisters said...

I have been thinking about you all morning... Charlotte has been super fussy (thanks to her getting 4 teeth at the same time) these past few days... And I know you are dealing with the same thing! I think getting them on a schedule will help soooo much! You can plan your days which helps. You will know when you can run out and when you need to be home. It's funny that you are turning your dining room into a play room... We just did the same thing! The girls needed more space to run around. I am sorry you are having such a rough time. Twins are not easy. I love my girls more than anything in the world but there are days (like today) that I could just jump out the window and never come back! I hear ya about "the state of my body". This is the biggest I have ever been. And I can't stand it! Maybe we could be weight lost support for each other. I was doing the weekly check on the Nest but everyone else was doing good and I wasn't... I hope your day is going good... And I am so glad your husband is such a great support! Big hugs to you:)

monica said...

I am sorry that you are feeling in the dumps. I hope that turning the dining room into a playroom will help the girls and diffently getting on a schedule will help. I wish you luck and I hope it starts to get better. That is great that your husband is a great support for you!

The Wilsons said...

Hi sweetie! I'm glad that Gary is there for you today. I'm so sorry that you're feeling down in the dumps. It sounds like you are taking the right steps to get everything going in the right direction. We're always here to listen!

The Mommy said...

This is my first time reading your blog, but I wanted to comment because we, too, turned our beautiful dining room into a playroom "temporarily". That was about four years ago! We are just now finishing our basement which SHOULD give me the dining room back. As hard as it is to have patience, of any kind, that's what you need. I'll say a prayer that God grants you some - in abundance! Just remember, this, too, shall pass.

And, my weight loss/exercise mantra: Do what you can, when you can! This means that if you truly have only five minutes to do something, five minutes is still better than zero minutes! Walk! Jump! Dance! Get the babies involved if you want to or it's necessary! Weight train using them! Do a couple of squats holding one girl! Or both! Believe me, I know how very hard it can be to lose weight after pregnancy (although I've only ever had singletons). Get a support system going and do your best. Never let anyone tell you that you have failed. As long as you are trying, you are not failing!

More Than Just a Mommy said...

You will have a dinning room again!! You will feel better and not so smashed together when you get it done! Lily and I are here and ready to help with whatever. When you are ready to go out by yourself you can make your first trip alone to our house, a baby friendly and right down the street if you forgot anything!! When they are lily's age you will be wishing they were small and nonmobile!!

Soxy Deb said...

It's hard with one so I can't imagine two. It's good you have Gary to help you. He's a sweetie.

Take care and you can do it!! I have faith in you.

Sara said...

Thanks everyone! I have such great bloggy friends :-)

Heather said...

I seriously have no idea how I will ever make it out of this house with my kids, so I sympathize with you there. And though it stinks to lose your dining room, I bet you will love the playroom once it is in. I am sure you will use it more than the DR with your girls.

Even though I am not even a month PP, I can tell that my body is not the same. I know I still have some weight to come off yet, but I am willing to bet this twin-skin pouch is here to stay. It's depressing.

Good luck w/ your schedule. I'll need pointers in a few months. I know once my DD got on a schedule at 4 months, things got much easier.

Rebecca said...

Nice! "Cleaning out your purse" sounds so much nicer than "bitching!" Thanks...

Jennifer said...

I have one fussy/needy baby and one totally happy baby. It really does make you feel guilty tending to one, doesn't it? Crossing my fingers you can get them on a schedule.

SaraBelle said...

Oh Sara - I'm so sorry you are having a rough time! I hope the schedule helps. Please know you aren't alone! BIG HUGS to you! You are so lucky to have a supportive DH and this blog for an "outlet". I feel bad about myself so often, too -- that I don't spend enough time with B&K b/c I chose to work, that I'm huge (I lost all my preg weight right away only to gain 20lbs back (ack!)). I have no motivation and DH travels all the time so I have no one to keep me on track (hmm, sounds like I need to take some accountablity). I just wanted you to know I could totally relate to your post!